بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
In the name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone! I was offline from my blogging world for a very long time indeed. I guess I was preoccupied with the drama, Nur 2 (I am even hearing the OST from the drama while typing this, hahahha). It would be nice to have a blog post about the lessons I’ve learned from such a good drama. But we save that for another day. If you are wondering what am I gonna write in this part 3 of a compilation of my life story as a cyst patient, I will sum up a bit.
I was diagnosed with a cyst back in 2017. It was attached to my left ovary. The 12 x 10 x 10 cm “Giant” was removed in the same year. It came back somehow bringing another friend, which makes it two. I took some medicine and only one is left. My current situation? Only Allah knows. Please read the other two parts (just slide below this post) as it will ease you to understand the lessons learnt (and still learning) that I would like to highlight with you today.
Lesson number 1 : Allah’s plan and timing is THE BEST EVER!!
Allah is The All Knowing. Allah knew that I will be handling a very important project which is the Geoscience Industrial Week 2017. While I was busy with the project and other stuff the news about my disease came. Well, a normal human being would look at the situation in 2 different ways, negatively or positively. I chose the latter. My mind was so busy thinking of ways to earn money for the project, thus I rarely thought about what is in my body or about the dreading surgery ahead. The timing of the surgery and the project was so “Cun” (nice). Right after the hustle and bustle of handling the project, I was admitted into the hospital a few days later. I was happy and glad because laying in bed all day long was the much awaited rest. On the day of the surgery again came Allah’s Great Plan. I was sick. The surgery had to be postponed. I was admitted from the hospital and went straight back to UM. I was able to join my other project back in college. Yayy. In May, the surgery was finally completed. I was given about 3 weeks of sick leave and nicely planned by Allah, I have an addition of 2 weeks because my study week started after that. From Allah’s Great Plans (there’s more, but I will keep it to myself :)), I feel loved by Him. Indeed, He is The Most Merciful and The Most Loving.
Lesson number 2: Sharing is Lightening!!
If you know me long enough, I am the type of person who can easily share her life stories with others (even to strangers). Well, not all stories of course. Remember when I received the news that my cyst came back and I was told by the doctor that this cyst dilemma will haunt me for a very long time. Receiving that unpleasant news at first was hard. I shamelessly cried in front of the hospital while waiting for my grab car. I look horrendous. In the same day, I crack the news to my friends back at my Geology Department. Guess what? I felt- lighten. The person who received the news felt bad though. As if I was some sort of transmitting bad energy to them. Lolll. Sorry… The Lightening process continued as I shared my worries and burden from one person to the other. In the end, I am worry-less and the cyst dilemma is bearable. To add on, I was sharing my cyst story with my friend, when her room mate admitted that she too was diagnosed with a cyst. You see I accidentally met a cyst-er (sister). Pun intended.
Lesson number 3: Love your body PLEASE!!
I realized this while taking my medicine, “No medicine can cure you, If you do not change your life style at all”. There’s no point eating medicine for diabetes if you gulped down Teh Tarik Kaw every day. Easier said than done. I admit that it was hard to change my eating habits from taking vegetables regularly to eat them every single day. It was stressful because I only like the vegetables that my mom cook. It was hard not to pick chicken for lunch (as it was cheaper), and go with fish. It was hard to wake up and jog in the evening as watching K-Drama on my comfy bed sounds like a more tempting idea. It was hard to reduce my Maggi Mee consumption from once a week to once a month as I am very frugal one. But then I realized that Allah had given my body in a very good condition when I was born, and ain’t it rude and ungrateful to return it back to Him in a bad condition. Imagine your friend borrowed your car for a day. The ungrateful friends of yours did not even bother to fill your car tank with oil like when they received your car. To make it worse, your car looks like it just came out of wilderness, filled with scratches and dirt. Well, I am glad that is not my car. So remember this every time you feel lazy to take care of your body.
What I decided to change after the surgery was my lifestyle. I started to jog at least once a week. Previously I despised jogging but since I joined the kayak team, I am forced to jog so that I have enough stamina later for the kayak competition. Nowadays, I jog to keep fit and mainly to remove wind from my gassy body. The whole pack of Maggi Mee was harder to finish now. Chicken? Well it would be nice if GSC stop showing McDonald’s Chicken Ad. Anyway at home, fish tastes a lot better when it is free. I admit that there were days that I just gave up and start being lazy but the moment I am feeling unwell the good life style drill came back.
Lesson number 4: Find Hikmah and Humor
In life, whatever that we face be it a good thing or a bad thing search for the hikmah or make some reflections out of it. The trials in life will be harder as we get older. What you faced as a toddler will not be the same as when you have become a mother or a father. Always remember that…
My next advice is face all the challenges in life with HUMOR. When doctors gave me advice to get married early as it is one of the solutions, I was like that it such a one of a kind advice (hahahahahah). Next, always remember that Allah loves you for all the challenges that He sent is to make you a better person. Better than yesterday. I share with you something that I would do every time life feels unbearable. I would read this surah in my solah with full conviction.
Pay attention to ayah 5 and 6. Fainnamaal usri yusra. Inna maal usri yusraa.
“Then indeed with every difficulty there is ease, indeed with every difficulty there is ease”.
Allah is counselling us that everything will be OK, not once but twice.
So these are the reflections that I managed to share with all of you. Alhamdulillah for the disease helped me to make such reflections. I am a different person than before. I hope my sharing leave an impact to you and I pray that may Allah bless us with a healthy body and mind and that we will always be grateful for them and use them to please Him. Amin. Till next time. Keep reading, keep spreading da’wah, keep helping the ummah. Jazakallahukhair.